31. What can I say? I’ve made it to thirty-freaking-one years and that is truly amazing!
I didn’t have any big plans (or any plans at all) for this year – all I really wanted was to chill out. Honestly, 30 wasn’t that big of a deal to me so 31 is just another day. BUT, before you could say how ungrateful I sound to be alive, please note that I AM extremely thankful for life itself. I’m alive, well and still young, right?!
I have been through a lot these last few years as I’ve mentioned in a couple of previous posts, but I am more than thankful for those experiences. So many lessons that I’ve learned from, really memorable times with great people, having my first daughter 4 years ago (my twinny me), growth within my current career and starting this personal blog!
Starting this blog has been therapeutic for me. I talk about everything that comes to mind! Although I am a bit filtered/private with some of my experiences, I feel like I do tell my audience enough to give them a piece of my mind. I do hope that all whom has visited my blog leaves with a refreshed mind, maybe a couple of laughs/tears, or has a better perspective of life in general. My only job here is to share my experiences and to give you a new insight of what life has to offer, what lessons you can learn or just knowing that someone (like me) out there could possibly be sharing the same stories as you. You are not alone.
Before 2018 started, I only prayed for life to get better for myself – emotionally, mentally and physically. Every year, I have had goals but I never found the drive to complete at least 90% of them. This year is different. I truly believe that I will check off everything from my list, slowly but surely. One can only encourage and drive themselves to conquer whatever is that they want to accomplish – whether if it’s saving more money, buying a home, starting a new career, being more passionate about their hobbies and turning it into a possible career/side job, starting a family, etc. You cannot always depend on others to give you that push or to start your business, to buy your home or grow in general. YOU have to want it for yourself and YOU have to start the process yourself.
One of my biggest goals this year and moving forward is to always be emotionally and mentally stable. We all have our days and that is fine. I’ve battled many of those days with myself and took it out on those around me which isn’t fair at all. I know that I will have really difficult days, but as long as I learn how to deal with my battles and inner “demons”, then I know I will be okay at the end of the day. I am a Pisces, so we are very emotional people. Some people know how to handle them, some do not. I want to learn how to control my emotions because I do not want to affect those around me so drastically. Dealing with myself will be a challenge, but I know I can do it. I’ve been having better days this year so it gives me a lot of hope that it won’t be so bad after all. I do have enough support from loved ones to reassure me that I am not alone. Neither are you.
Another goal for me this year is to grow with my daughter, Kylie. She is my life, universe, world, entire galaxy! I am sure you can tell if you have visited our Instagram pages. Just four years ago, I never knew a tiny human would change my life in so many different ways. We have seen a lot of changes but also experienced a lot of growth together. I can only pray that she will grow up to understand that everything I do, is for her. At 4 years old, she has seen me go through an emotional roller coaster. Who knew at that age, they would ask, “Are you okay? Why are you crying? Are you sad? Are you mad? Do you love me?” Whew! Those are questions adults usually ask other adults – but not my child! She stays in tune with my emotions because I show them so often – that is something I cannot hide! So I know I need to tighten up and not only show her that I am emotionally and mentally strong(er), but also to let her know that it is okay to show how I feel. I must be her example at all times. Stay strong – we can do it.
Again, 31 incredible years and I couldn’t give enough thanks to those who have stuck right by me and all of my changes (good and bad); my wonderful friends and cousins, the loml, my little Bubba (Kylie). I’ve lost many people in my life, but have gained so much more throughout the process. I am grateful for the life I currently have, whose in it, what I have accomplished so far and the goals I have written down for myself. I know that 2018 isn’t going to be so bad after all. I have flaws, I am not perfect. But I also know that I have many areas where I want to improve and grow. Every single person will always have opportunities to grow and prosper – you just have to find what you want and map out how you will accomplish everything. I’ve had many difficult moments this last year but it only means that something great is waiting to happen. God knows me, my life, why I’ve made certain choices and how much I’ve learned in just one year. He is going to make sure I get what I truly deserve – more love, positivism, good vibes, better lifestyle… just the very best that life has to offer.
Writing has been my therapy and it could be for you too. I challenge each one of you to buy a journal (go to Target’s $1 section – they usually have plenty!) and write down your goals from now until your next birthday or even for the next year. Every time you accomplish one of them, highlight or check it off. When you have something on your mind, write it down. You’ll look back and realize how much you have grown or even look back and see what area you may need more time to improve. Make time for yourself every day and know that we are in this together. There is nothing wrong with being a little selfish because being selfish isn’t always a bad thing.
Happy birthday to myself and my fellow Pisces! 2018 is the year for growth, forgiveness, peace and more love. Make sure to get out there and make it YOUR YEAR – just as I will!